Feeling Sexually Bored? Maybe a Little Numb?

Once upon a time, I felt sexually discarded – almost numb. I didn’t feel like anyone noticed me anymore as a sexual being. I was a lot of things, a wife, mother, worker-bee, daughter, sister and general good doer! But a sexually being? A hottie? A Head turner? Not so much! And I once was! What happened?

Sexually Bored

Maybe it was the baby weight – or my life obligations, or monogamy. I didn’t know – but I had stopped looking in the mirror and I didn’t see myself reflected back in the eyes of men anymore. I felt like nobody saw me as a sexual being anymore – and I think that perhaps that is because I stopped seeing myself as a sexual being. The fact is that I was not unattractive. I was perhaps a little too plump by societies standards, but I was not un-kempt or unattractive. But I had lost the swing to my hips.

The good news? I got it back – in spades in my forties and even wrote a book about it! And now at fifty, I am now owning my sexuality in ways that I don’t think that I had a clue about in my 20′s and 30′s. For me – my forties were a time of reawakening and reclaiming my sexually discarded self. And you can do it too, even if you think it is not possible. There are lots of ways to get your sexual mojo back and reclaim your sexuality. I don’t mean to sound like a twisted soccer mom here – but I believe that your pleasure is not only important – but it is a vital life force that deserves to be nutured. And the reclaiming of your sexual pleasure will not only bring joy back to your life – but to those around you! You know that old saying – “If mama isn’t happy – nobody is happy!”

So – take a few steps to help reclaim your sexuality from the trash bin!

1. Make time for pleasure. If you don’t put the oxygen mask over your face first – you can’t help others. So make time for yourself. Put yourself at the top of the totem pole. It’s not selfish – it is necessary.

2. Reach for some help! There are some fabulous products on the market that can give your sexuality a reboot! I love Zestra for women! It’s an arousal gel. And there have been times when it has really helped me shake things up at home.

3. Be compassionate to yourself. Know that you are not alone. Other people are searching for answers too. Talk to your friends. What are they doing to help themselves recharge their batteries? You might be surprised if you open up the conversation! Sharing tips with friends will make you laugh and open your eyes to new possibilities.

4. Create intimacy with yourself. What can you do to remove the barriers to pleasure in your life? I think that learning to see ourselves with new eyes can change how the world sees us.

I believe that our sexuality is self renewing with no expiration dates. You can recharge, reboot and recycle! It’s there – waiting for you.…

Finding Your Sexy At The Speed Of Choice

I have been called a “Force of Nature” on more than one occasion. There was and is, a belief in my soul that I can move through anything. It’s a good power to own and use wisely. It’s a tool of creation and having a vision. These are all good things. I have also learned that I don’t have to power through everything, and I don’t always have to move quickly. There is power there too. Let me explain.

sexy choice

Taking your time is an option too. And if you don’t really get that, you are not living in the power of sexy choices. You have the choice to move fast and power through, and you have the choice to slow down or simply not move at all. Sexy is finding your pace in the moment and not moving according to old programs of how you always are. Experiment and check in with yourself. Do you always move slow? Maybe it’s time to try out a different gear.

When you have the power to go fast, cliff jump, slow down, or simply stay where you are, then you truly have free will.

In my own life, what I have found is that my own playing with the speed gears of my life and understanding my own willingness to stay in one place that has been the foundation for me to make good, solid, sexy choices to creating a better life for myself.

Author, Alan Cohen puts it like this: “Sometimes the willingness to find your good where you stand is the prerequisite to moving to “better”. As long as you need to go, you have to stay. When you can stay, you are free to go. It’s a paradox – your point of power. As long as you are attached to one option or the other, you are stuck. When you can hold both alternative simultaneously, you are free.”

Play with your speeds. Do something different. Feel the sexy choices. You might make an incredible discovery of about yourself.…

Harnessing The Power Of Pleasure The Joy Of One Way Touch And a Hamburger

Sometimes I have to be reminded to practice what I preach – and that means – keeping the little voices at bay that whisper not so sweet nothings into my ear.  My self sabotaging voices usually have to do with my body – or my ability to create the future that I want.  Even I need to be reminded to do what I  tell others to do – and that is to stay in each moment – and make time to get inside my body and turn my brain off.  For me – the most effective way to get inside my body is through one way touch.

power of pleasure

Literally surrendering on the massage table and allowing my body to open to pleasure and sensation.  Feeling hands on my body reminds me that I am beautiful and full of pleasure.  The dance between the massage therapist and my body – hand on skin – draws all of my attention inside to the feelings of sensation and magically takes away my chronic “monkey brain” that is always worrying about the next thing that I have to do.

I was feeling pretty burned out – it’s fabulous, fun, and exciting to launch “Shameless” into the world – and I have been on a marathon – until January 18th – the publication date – I am also still working full time in fertility (something that will always be a part of me) so that means that every waking hour is devoted to something! A dear friend and mentor spoke to me and said “Pamela – this is not the time to forget what changed your life! You need touch! Get thee to a massage table – and out of that bag of pretzels!” Oh – I did what everyone does – I whined about not having the time or the money – but reached out anyway to the people in my life that support me. And after a few starts and stops – the beautiful and incredible massage therapist  John Ellsworth created time for me to climb on his table.

It’s about receiving – and knowing that the person who is giving is also receiving – and there is nothing to do but be in my own body – feel my own breath – and move into his hands.  The other day I wrote about this study on my Shameless Woman blog over at  Psychology Today that I heard on  The Today Show during their hour long special on sex. The study that was cited was all about how over 80% of all women and over 70% of all men want to be tied up.  This does not surprise me.  They want to be “forced” to receive – “forced” to surrender to pleasure because so many people feel that they always have to give back – always have to “do” in some way – and knowing how to simply receive pleasure is something that is so completely foreign to us – that we want the ropes to enforce the boundary on reminding us to simply receive.  Of course – ropes can feel sexy too! And having the rope on our skin may be it’s own turn -on.  I am just talking about a deeper place of meaning in this blog that the ropes can represent for people.

As for me – I don’t need ropes anymore to encourage me to receive touch.  I just need a gentle or not so gentle reminder from my friends that I too need to create the time just to receive – and for me the massage table is just the thing.  For 90 minutes I went away – and when I came back – John pointed me in the direction of a wonderful little bar to get a hamburger and a martini. A real treat for me.  I walked around the corner – how I got there I am really not sure as I was still a bit punch drunk from all that fabulous touch – and sat down at a table for one.

It was good to be alone. I am sure that I was a sight! With a brand new hair do created by  massage oil and John’s hands – and my slightly glazed over eyes – I was thankful that they seated me! I order my martini as I watched plates of salad go by. No – I wasn’t going to have salad. I ordered a hamburger with french fries. Something that I would never do – it’s a big scandalous for a chubby girl to eat so freely – especially in public. But I did.  I sipped – I day dreamed and I ate that hamburger – bun and all – down to the last crumb.

I sang all the way home my own little mantra – thank you – thank you – thank you!!! Ah the healing power of pleasure – I really need to harness it a bit more often!…

Do You Worry About Orgasms?

When New York Magazine’s Daily Intel picked up my Psychology Today blog – “What is An Organic Orgasm?” exploring my thoughts on expanding pleasure in our sexuality by being less goal orientated in the bedroom in their piece called “House of Un- American Orgasms” – I almost fell off my chair.


The point of my blog was to create an invitation to the reader to explore something that is perhaps a new idea for some people in their sexing – either with a partner or by themselves – and that is to try on slowing down. Many men and women have a varying levels of performance anxiety around their orgasms and the orgasm of their partner. Some of us feel that if we don’t achieve orgasm in each and every sexual encounter that we have something wrong with us. This can create a very unsexy- sexual anxiety, which of course, is not going to bring anyone pleasure.

“Orgasm Anxiety” increases our stress, adds to worry – and can take us out of our bodies and into our heads – which of course will make climaxing more difficult and less enjoyable. According to my friends over at The Pleasure Mechanics , “Anxiety about orgasm is a leading cause of erectile issues in men – the ability to relax and focus on sensation is essential for both male and female arousal.” I couldn’t have said it better myself!

When I talk about “Organic Orgasms” or even dip my big toe into the world of “Slow Sex” what I am inviting us to do is to simply enjoy the pleasure of touch and sexual intimacy. How playful can you be with yourself, and with your partner? What sensations have you explored lately? There are so many different types of sensations that can happen for us during sexual arousal and through the very human experience of sexual intimacy – whether we are using sex toys, vibrators, arousal gels, fingers, mouths, or our genitals.

No one is suggesting that we give up orgasm! Instead – I am creating the invitation to savor it all. And if can let go of the anxiety of goal oriented pleasure – what we may find is that our climaxes (orgasms) may become even more amazing, delicious, and earth shattering than ever before!

When it comes to sexuality – there are few rules outside of safe, sane and consensual. For me – it’s about simply being…